Yep. It's true. I. AM. TIRED.
I wake up tired, I walk tired, I talk tired, I eat tired, I work tired, I go to bed tired.
I was even too tired to do my normal welcome in this post. Too bad I wasn't too tired to complain, huh?
As you all know, Lil' A started Kinder 2 weeks ago. It's been quite a transition. For all of us. It seems that Lil' A's internal alarm clock starts ring-a-ding-dinging around 5:15 am. Yep. You'd think that we'd have plenty of time to get dressed, take medicine, pack lunches, make and eat breakfast, grab the (well organized) backpack, water bottle, homework folder, lunchbox and start our walk since we've been awake since 5:15 am... but somehow, we're always running. And then there's the after school routine.
But this isn't why I'm tired. Lil' A has had his first few weeks of school marred by bullying. So I've met with and spoke with the school monitors, Lil A's teacher and the Principal - numerous times. I also think/worry/contemplate/worry/get angry/feel mad and frustrated almost all of the time. I think this is why I'm so tired. Stress can really take it out of you.
I kind of feel like this...
Okay, so this is actually Lil' A's impression of "decaying" fruit. But I still feel it's right on.
I think things are improving now, I think things are going to start getting better. I feel like we have a good team behind us, watching out for Adam, making sure all of the kids are safe and happy and adjusting well. It's hard, intrusting your child's safety and well-being... only to have him come home saying he was hit, spit on, called names, called bad words, spun around and more. Almost every day. It's hard to fix an issue that you're not there for. It's exhausting to worry about it all the time, wondering what to do, feeling not in control of your child's world, feeling like you can't protect them and that's the only job you're supposed to do. But I really do think it's going to get better. Today was better. I think tomorrow will be too.
So, please forgive my lack of posts. I think we're almost back on track and as soon as we are, I'm sure my posts will pick back up just like usual.
I'm betting by next Monday, I won't feel like decaying fruit any more.